Dive Bar
Bring back in the "I told you so's" and all six inches of that "High school relationships never last." You may have won this time common sense, but I'll come back next year with a handful of bad decisions and a maybe one or two amazing ones.

Capsized
As I recalibrate my life, I find myself drowned in the lives of others, thankful the waters are deep. Embraced every terrible memory, argument, issue, problem, and torn down hope. Pinned it to a wall, and knocked it down.

I'll find my footing faster than usual and dance like I'm twenty something.

Winter Trees
I'm here in the dead set crease of December parsing thoughts on love and garbage. Las Vegas' desert nights are as ruthless as the casino club floors. My insides feel stained with cigarettes I never smoked.

Pilot Light
I'll turn my heart towards an amazing future. No check-in baggage or carry on luggage. Seat belts fastened with seat backs and tray tables in their upright position. I'll prep to write on a clean slip of paper pressed for an amazing story.

For my next trick I'll write something for my future love life. Meant to be read slow with a glass of whisky in hand:

She's a killer,
A dreamcatcher,
A fire lit room.

She picks a book like a gun,
And thinks six shots of tequila.

She's a deep red,
Fireworks in the new year,
A quiet night in June.

Dancing alone in her room.

Mirrors
I had a dream that my dad died last and everyone knew it but me. This plot coming from a third person perspective of course. My nonchalant reaction is was creeped me out the most. I felt dazed and my body felt heavy, but no inkling to cry.

Patternless Wallpaper
The transition from summer to the start of fall semester has been a running start. Classes parties, work, and friends have completely absorbed every ounce of time that i have. I admit that my priorities have been a bit skewed. I want this year to be the one that encapsulates my youth as a college student. When i think back to my college years i want my thoughts to be flooded with memories and photos of a worry-less, spontaneous point in my life that encapsulated the beauty of being free.

The Fated Leaves of Fall
If i was 40, with kids, family, and a job, what would i wish i could've done when i was younger? I'll come back to that.

What do you wish you did when you were in high school?
I wish i had made more friends, talked to more people, and lived a lot more.
I wish i played less video games and watched less television.
Less time on the phone, more time talking to people in person.
I wish i wasn't so self-conscious and
I wished i didn't stress over classwork as much as i did.

So now i'm imagining i'm 40 and tied down somewhat with a job and family...
I wish i traveled more,
I wish i appreciated those special moments of doing crazy things.
I wish i took in the atmosphere of being surrounded by friends.

Epilogue
I'll take my time being me.

Red
So we couldn’t work out. Love without trust isn’t love at all. Pain subsides and the trees will grow effortlessly. When we stopped talking and separated she made that sharp right out of a future involving ‘us’. I’m sure we both felt the tear as our paths bent away.

Yellow
As I separate what’s left of the things in our room, I feel reluctant to keep the things we held together. I’m reluctant to think about the things that held us together. I’m sure this bitterness will fade if I continue to concentrate on the facts and faults of the relationship. Its too bad there is no comfort or warmth when trying to get closure out of these things.

Green
But logical optimism can reform this loss into something positive right? I can expect newer and better things like a relationship free of distrust and immaturity. Once traffic starts to move regularly again I can get out of this intersection and hopefully collide into something nice. Perhaps new friends and a solid career path!

Chemical Colors
It was a great weekend despite the preface. A great movie, a trip to SB and a party involving a comfortable crowd made this a great weekend to sound the warning that summer is fading out.

I saw the sunset yesterday in a Vons parking lot. It was the type of sky that ignited the clouds. The smoke from the California fires filtered the sunlight and left a warm glowing sphere suspended in a violet red orange landscape. I froze my ass off in that parking lot.

Open Source
So My internships winding down, and after much discussion with a couple influential people I've decided not to continue my internship. I'm a little sad but its best since i know I'd probably benefit more from taking my internships at different places.

Apple Pie
Hell weeks been slow (not much surprise there). Lots of last minute projects and meetings and things to remember. This Saturday is LA (Malibu+Santa_Monica)@ 5-10am for our 24 project. That'll be cold and fun as usual.

The DJ Plays
Music which i've been enveloped in is as follows:

• This Will Destroy You
• Delorean
• Modest Mouse
• TV on the Radio
• My Morning Jacket

Resurrection of the College Cookbook
Yes its back! Tonight I prepared, a black bean stir fry with chicken (marinated in Korean BBQ Sauce), onions, broccoli, snow peas and garlic. It came out surprisingly well! Especially since i haven't eaten anything remotely Chinese in ages. The big surprise was the snow peas. I wasn't expecting much since they were Safeway's frozen snow peas, However, they required no thawing, just microwave and serve. I probably steamed the broccoli too much, but i hate tough broccoli anyway so whatever. I'd give the taste a 6.5 out of 10.

Play the Instrumental (No Sharps or Flats)
I can't wait to be done. I'm tired of being tired. I need to stop fatbitching it and eat healthier. I also need to ease up on my alcohol consumption (even though my bar tending skills have been increasing exponentially). I'm also finding my long hair super annoying. I really want to cut it as soon as possible. Its so shaggy and big :{ too bad i don't trust Ventura barbers. I'll wait for the Asian hairdresser back home in Hi.

Cheers to the mixed bag feelings of college.

Pick Me Up
Waaaah... no update in awhile. sorry. I was chasing the foxes down their holes :]
I've been recently fighting a rather hearty cold which has made the past couple of weeks pretty distasteful. I finally received my brand spanking new macbook pro, which means i have now happily conformed with the majority of designers (...). Novembers half over in case you didn't know, and i'm still here wondering were the semester went. I'm subtley being romanced by the changing weather. These thoughts usually spring themselves between my intermittent caughing fits.

State Lines
I think its safe to resume the countdown of days as soon as my father arrives for thanksgiving. Though i'm still a year short of enjoying vegas i'm sort of looking forward to seeing what the stip is like and also how my sister is doing.

Air Preassure
My music taste has slightly tweaked towards accepting more mainstream music and some rap (thanks to my "i love the 90's" friends and my work enviornment). As far as my continued expansion into my preferred music genre i've discoverd some nice stuff:

Mates of State
My Morning Jacket's Evil Urges
Erlend Oye
MGMT
Pedro The Lion
Jose Gonzalez
Apparat
Digitalism
Crystal Castles
PlayRadioPlay(somewhat indifferent)
The Whitest Boy Alive

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