Pick Me Up, Please
So this week has been full of roses. which i'll let you decide if its bad or good. but currently i feel terrible. Work stress is crazy rough. and i'm worried about appeasing my boss. I want to do well at my internship but the expectations for me are high. Which is good. But bad in the sense where when i fail to meet them, i immediately feel like shit. bad twist to a good thing.

Crashing Cars
ok, so normally i try to make the sub header somewhat remotely metaphoric of what i'm going to write about but in this case you can completely disregard the title. why? just because ^^

Cancer
I occasionally like reading horoscopes when my mind is drifting into space [which =stars=constellations=astrology (ha!)]. <-that was my thought process in a mathematical equation. heres a simplified version: never mind. Anyway i think astrology as a whole is an interesting pseudoscience but i'd never take it into consideration when making decisions. So to make some use of my weekly horoscope i'm going to fit events that happened this week to fit my horoscope. enjoy ^^

Catalysts
"During Monday, your conscience is telling you to buckle down, while another part of you wants to drop everything and live it up. Which do you listen to? Well, consult a friend and see what he or she thinks about your predicament..."

Within the week starting, everything sucked because of work, which means that i have to focus on my responsibilities. I talked to my roomate about it, but he just let me vent, so i guess that just meant that i didn't need a second opinion.

"...By the middle of the week, you're in a more no-nonsense mood. When you take care of business first, you can have your fun with a clear conscience. This policy stands you in good stead, especially when the possibility of a last-minute trip comes up during the final part of the week or over the weekend."

So by the middle of the week shit started to get crazy and i ended up missing classes for sleep and working overtime on all of my work projects (fun stuff). I want to be finished with all this shit so i can enjoy my Halloween weekend! However the way things are looking now, i've missed my opportunity to have a worry-less weekend. I've got a in-house comp presentation on Monday, and a client presentation on Tuesday. FAJCBNAKFCKAJNSCIUNASCKKACKCCK

i'll figure it out...

Reaction
So i've been oversleeping. I missed two morning classes within the past two days, and i need to change my sleeping habits.

Addiction
That show House is slowly sucking more and more time from my day with its sarcastic humor, mystery and drama. ARGH, and i'm still struggling to watch my portion sizes and food intake.

Diagnosis
Could be lupus or micro tumors, but that wouldn't explain the liver failure and delusions.
ARGSHKJkAKCMLKSA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Grey to Gray
My classes aren't hard so there should be no reason to stress. I know its just my lack of sleep working against me. Theres a road trip to look foreward to this weekend and DCFC (oh yes). October's Fall-ing and Cali didn't burn like i hoped it would.

Every day i drive to and from work i always see that "Watch For Wild Animals" sign but even though i watch for them I NEVER SEE THEM. I keep thinking i'll see a rhinocerous something...


(those animals are crazy wild!)

Plus 5
I just got through playing the stupid game of LIFE... ugh, man i hate that game. I love how the way you win at life is by making a lot of money. Geeze...

Recollection of Homecoming Anarchy
Homecoming was last weekend which was actually a lot of fun [since i actually had friends to go with this year, Ha!]. I had a great time: Saw a lot of people, met a few people, had fun, etc. I remember the shitty carnival rides, singing that Smashmouth song Hey Now You're A Rock Star on stage, pieing friends, and watching a spider almost land on someone's head. It was all crazy fun.


Us on stage like a crowd of drunk people.

The day after we had the homecoming dance at some club in hollywood. I, of course, did not go and decided to go to anti-homecoming which was hanging out with mat-them at Claim Jumpers and having a fun party [drama free] back at the house. It was rather funny because everyone who came back seemed to have a not-so-great time and drama. All of this was terrible for my diet plan which is barely holding up :[

Weekly Physical
This week has been a normal sleepless one. Which is bad because the weather is shit, and everyone is catching colds. My musical creativity has been lacking along with my guitar playing. I'm slowly getting treble clef though! Wooo...

Man, i've been really wanting to get out of TO recently. Just to get a change of scenery. Argh, but no one wants to do anything. I hate it.

anyways...
end.

Post Traumatic Reality
Cali is burning again...

[oh geeze, an elipsis within the first paragraph...
That tingly feeling? Yeah, its going there so jump ship while you still can...]

Today's just been that kind of day where you wish the sky would burn so that you could feel warm inside.

Anxiety Cake
Mmmmm... Since Friday, work has been that ominous cloud of smoke burning in the background. I know that in this profession, creative potholes will become the cancer that either kills you or makes you. I guess this being my first flub, I should take the most that i can from it.

ugh, but i still feel sick. I want to be good at this and i know i can be which is why this is so upsetting.